We weren't meant to be cooped up in our homes with minimal contact. With no one to talk with for days and no one to give you a hug. The last time we were with Brian he gave me a great big hug before he left. It was a really good hug, one that I …
Anniversary Poem – The King Of Pizza
Every day you’re on my mindYour absence, a reason I long to findFive years ago you went awayA cure we found was just a cliché The world has stolen the Brian rhymeThe hustle and bustle, loss of time the crimeThoughts all jumbled no coherencyDepth of understanding lacking apparency Justice dispensed by the man in robes …
Too long
It has been way too long since I sat down and penned a post. The time, the time where does it go. I think that is one of the most unfortunate aspects of our lives. It takes far too long for us to understand just how fleeting our moments are. It is so easy to …
Happy Birthday
April 12th was Brian's birthday. It's a day that we all spend together. We meet at Brian's grave and sit around and talk then we head over too one of Brian's favorite restaurants, it's Indian food. We talk about many things, memories of Brian and how we're doing. It's therapeutic as well as hard. I …
Just One More
It's late at night. Once again I'm on a plane jammed in with a couple hundred other people, uncomfortable knowing that there will be little sleep. I have my earbuds in to drown out some of the noise and close my eyes. Then, without reason the gates swing open. The flood starts. The memories come …
Sister’s Post – Don’t Leave Me (On Sisters page)
Another heart wrenching post from Brian's little sister. Breaks my heart to know the pain my girls are suffering with. I wish I could take it from them. I love them so dearly.
Meltdown
I thought I was doing so good, Was keeping it together, got through the Christmas and new year seasons, keeping my emotions in check, supporting all those I love. Got on a plane for a business trip and wham! I cried for three hours straight. I tried to make sense of it all. The whys …
New year (?) …….
I haven't added a new post in months and it hurts. I have found it therapeutic. It's alone time and quiet time. Time I spend reflecting on Brian and how he impacted me and how he impacted the family. Not sitting down and taking that time makes me feel cheated. I suppose it just happens …
Artfully alone
Whenever I go on a business trip alone I find myself blissfully consumed with thoughts of family and my beloved wife. I find that the trips don't get easier and that I miss my family more and more. I truly hate being away from them. I hate missing out on things that are important to …
Crushing Reality
I learned yesterday that a father who had worked with my oldest daughter lost his 22 year old son to drugs yesterday. This one crushed me because the father had to make a decision which I'm not sure I could have. You see his son had overdosed just over a month ago and was in …
Chasing Wasted Time
A man in my building died in the parking lot the other day. He was 53. A massive heart attack. He left behind a wife and a daughter. He loved them both very much, he was going to take his daughter fishing next week to teach her how. Life is so fragile, so fleeting. Were …
Baby Sister’s Dream
Another phenomenal post from Brian's baby sister.
A sister’s heart!
Brian's baby sister has added a post on the Sisters page
Neglect
This Spring has been somewhat of an eye opener for me. As I worked to get my sprinkler system up and running I came to the realization that my lawn was dead. Getting my sprinkler system going wasn't going to revive it. It needed more than just water, it needed care. I asked myself, how …
Unhealthy Thinking
Today I witnessed a family at the beach. It was Mom and Dad their daughter and 16 year old son. It upset me. It was clear they were quite well off which may be a contributor to the nature of the relationship between the parents and their son. What disturbed me was how they treated …
A Common Tradegy
This afternoon I met a couple who had suffered the lose of a child. They lost a daughter, Karen who was 27. They shared with me Karen's story and how she had died 11 years ago. It has become a realization for me just how many parents have lost a child. The "club" is certainly …
Everyday …….
It's been a while since I last sat down and wrote a note. Time just goes by and before you know it it's two months. I have wanted to write but, I seem to have an excuse each time. It's not that I don't think about Brian because I think about him everyday. Everyday I …
Happy Birthday!
Today is Brian's birthday. He would have been 26. I miss him! This day is hitting me so much harder than I had anticipated. I thought I was doing pretty good. I thought I was emotionally better prepared. But, one minute I'm fine and the next I'm sitting behind the wheel of my car tears …
Millions and millions
I need help. My challenge is to get the word out. How can I reach an audience that will cause change? Fundamentally it only needs to be the right person but, to get there I need to touch millions. I had hoped that this would be the venue. I had hoped that I could influence. …
Late night phone calls
As I sit here in the dark I find that I have come to hate late night phone calls. We were yanked from our sleep this morning at 4 AM when the phone rang and we got the news that my wife's mother had fallen. Not good news! When Brian was in one of his …
Beautiful Blue Sky 
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