Old Firsts

One of the things that was so hard as we moved forward was that for the first few years that there were so many firsts without. It’s bitter sweet. You enjoy the flood of memories but, it hurts deep when you realize he’s not there to celebrate with you. We’ve managed to balance those times to maximize all the good that they can bring but it’s hard non-the-less. Then there’s the things that always remind you of him. Every time I eat pizza I think of Brian, it just happens, it’s not forced and those memories tend to be good ones.

Today we start our firsts for our Pop. We celebrate Mom’s birthday and mother’s day without him. While my wife and I will share good memories it will be a difficult time. We’ll get the whole family together and the range of emotions will be quite varied. Pops was close to a couple of his grand-kids and they are struggling. It offers us an opportunity to care for our loved ones according to needs. I am so thankful we can do this together, I just can’t imagine if we were forced to do this individually without the comfort of a hug.