Three years!

Some things are easier to say in a poem.

Christmas Eve is when you went
Just yesterday, time so quickly spent
It’s been three years since you’ve gone away
And yet I see you every day

Not just your picture up on the wall
But in everyday things both big and small
I see you in the things I do
A Starbucks latte or something foo-foo

I see you in your mother’s eyes
When cooking a turkey with gravy or a pizza pie
Every time when a game we play
Piggies, Rumikub, you’re not far away

I see you in every picture Steph takes
Shared love of beauty, our souls quake
Down on the Reeper Bahn, it’s party night
Laughing, dancing at the Grosse Freiheit

Danielle rubs her hands giggling with delight
She’s well known as Brian’s sister all right
At Grandma’s house in Sindelfingen
German beer, laughter, oh my heads a sting’n

I see you in a laughing Fair Bear
When Melody feeds Crixcis from her breakfast chair
When those girls you would chase
In your arms spun around, huge smiles on their face

When I go downstairs to shoot some pool
I wonder if I could take you to school
I wonder what we would talk about
What music you’d choose, would this be a rout

The hoop that stands by the garage door
The last time we played your old man was sore
The soccer ball, it’s somewhat flat
Five years old, fifteen goals you’re ALL THAT

A tapered shirt, stylish and new
Pants slagging, some super fly shoes
Going out to see a pretty girl
Smiling so big, know she’s a pearl

The life of the party that’s for sure
Making us laugh providing the cure
Board games you held your ground quite well
In beer pong however you did truly excel

There’s just so many ways you appear
The memories rush in your face is so clear
Just want to reach out and hold you tight
Hold on to that moment with all my might

The stories we each could tell
Warms our hearts, makes them swell
We wish you were here on this special day
The gift you received we won’t take away

We miss you so, I will not lie
Your laughter, the twinkle in your eye
We miss you and your world view
Bright sunny days, sky so big and oh so blue

Christmas Eve should be a crushing blow
Should make me sad all filled with woe
Should make me mad all full of hate
Should make me want to rage, never abate

But Christmas Eve is so much more
Consuming hope knocks on the door
Each one of us salvation gained
Grace a gift granted free and unchained

In God we trust this Christmas Eve
Our Brian new life he did receive
That is what we celebrate
Our Brian waits for us at heaven’s gate

Romans 3:24 - 25
Yet God, with undeserved kindness, 
declares that we are righteous. 
He did this through Christ Jesus when 
He freed us from the penalty for our sins. 
For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin.